I'm coming home! XD

Written by a bored coward

Why is everything about you and nothing is about me? Why do I have to endure everything and you can just walk off without an issue? You made me feel feeble, unimportant, and insignificant. I know, now you're getting your recognition somewhere else, you don't need me anymore.

Things are so obvious, don't you notice it? I don't want to be a doormat. From this moment onwards, it's only going to be I, ME and MYSELF.

I want to tell God,"It feels good to be selfish. Because if you're not, you just keep getting hurt all the time, and people don't care."

I'm struggling inside. You expected so much out of me. Have you ever stood by me to give me a hand in case I fall? In fact, you scolded me like shit whenever I fail a little.

I'm bored. I'm really bored. I've gone through some 'hard time' recently and I got really scared of driving tests. I've met several LC people and I really hope I've got the courage to tell them off, tell them they're rude. However, I didn't. Because I was scared. I'm afraid of everything. Afraid of abandonment. Afraid of failures. Afraid of neglection. I hated horror movies because I'm afraid of them. I hated LC people because I'm not as confident as they are.

A lady once told me,"You need to love yourself before you love others. This is called self esteem. Then the things you do will have effect. Self-imposed self esteem cannot work." Love myself. How?

Nothing satisfies me better than watching a laughter-filled Spongebob Squarepants episode.